i hate blaming myself for things that happen, but sometimes i really do need to just step up and take ownership of shit that happens.
"yes, it is my fault. what can i do to make it better?"
sometimes i can't make it better. i just gotta take the consequences of my actions.
i take a beating, i fall, i break, and i cry.
then i pick myself back up and i try again.
there's always hope, there's always forgiveness.
i ask myself, "what can i do better this time?"
and once i get into that mentality of expecting better from myself, i change.
it hurts like hell to change, but it's worth it.
i've learned this over the past few months.
it's worth it.
People who lose that focus stumble into depression, because they hold onto the past.
Now i know whatever in the past i clung onto were just reflections of my own insecurities.
it's such a simple lesson, but it takes tremendous heartache and failure in order for someone like me to see the obvious logic and self sustenance that i needed and the things that were holding me back from that.
:)
just taking a bit of ownership.
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thanks for the entry, much needed.